Today has been a tough day mentally for me, not knowing the unknown. I’m almost healed from my craniotomy. However, I’m healing to unheal with radiation in 2021. I know I’ll get through it and finally heal, a long journey not fully planned yet & I am a planner.
I’m my best advocate and I want the best for me. To be raw, it’s tough finding who you think will be the best for your treatment. With my degree in Biochemistry, cell and molecular biology I find myself reading scientific journals on my tumor and radiation. I dislike & love how intelligent I am in this field. I’m preparing myself with questions. However inside I’m terrified.
I need to get out of my head but it’s so difficult. I’m me again. I sometimes wish I was still manic. I wasn’t thinking rationally. Now I am. But that’s not true, God wouldn’t put me through something I couldn’t handle. So I need to breath and take it one day at a time.
As baby Becca says, I got this.
Be bold.
Becca’s Meningioma 2 Journey 
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